[AU] these are not the parts and poems of the body only, but of the soul

[from_the_outside]

They've all entered a kind of tense détente after the ill-advised dinner party. Tony throws himself into work, Sharon and Pepper mostly avoid each other, and Steve, Vision, and Nat continue with oversight duties.

And the thing is... Tony's working it out. 

Not a removal, exactly, but he's getting close, he'd told them, to at least blocking the commands. It's not perfect and it's not a permanent solution, but it's a step in the right direction. It's also a step in the direction of Tony needing to test the words on Bucky himself, and so Sharon and Steve are on extra high alert, keeping an eye out for any indication that Bucky's retreating into himself again. Sharon's mostly moved into the room they share in Steve's apartment for that very reason, though she still isn't wholly comfortable with being in Steve's space all the time.

He's away today, working with Sam and Rhodey on a veteran's outreach program, so it's Sharon who walks with Bucky through the halls of the compound towards Tony's rooms. "It's you and Vision with Tony today," she tells him, and glances across the distance they're careful to maintain when not alone behind closed doors.

"How are you feeling about everything?"

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[nerves_of_ice]

A shudder ripples over him, and he slips his left arm around her waist, pulling her closer.

"Never again," he repeats, softly, then looks down at her. "You're safe with me now."

[from_the_outside]

"I've always been safe with you," she says, with fierce loyalty and perfect belief. She runs her fingers through his hair and leans up to kiss him, deep and sweet.

[nerves_of_ice]

He knows it's not true, and also knows she draws the distinction between Bucky Barnes and the Winter Soldier more clearly than he himself can do. He doesn't try to argue, but makes a soft sound low in his throat as he returns her kiss, holding her close.

[from_the_outside]

She kisses him again and smiles when it breaks, delight shining out of her whole face. "Well, this turned into a special day," she says, and laughs. "Poor Steve. What a day to be away."

Sharon beams up at him, running her thumbs over his temples. "We should celebrate. What do you feel like doing?"

[nerves_of_ice]

"I'll tell him tonight," he promises. "What he's doing with Sam and Rhodey - it's too important to interrupt."

His answering smile is a little rueful. "I don't know. I wasn't expecting this." Bucky hesitates for a second, then asks, "Do you still have time to go out somewhere for a while?"

[from_the_outside]

"Definitely."

Her report to Ross can wait until later. "Want to get out of here for a bit?"

[nerves_of_ice]

Bucky smiles. It's answer enough.

[from_the_outside]

"Okay," she laughs, and steps away to grab her tote bag. "Let's go."

Between Nat and Steve – and Tony's guilt – they've pretty much had their picks of the cars down in the garage. Today, Sharon selects the keys to a speedy-looking convertible and tosses them to him, grinning. "It's a beautiful day. Let's take advantage."

[nerves_of_ice]

He catches them with ease and tosses them back, looking innocent. "Isn't it your turn to drive?"

[from_the_outside]

Sharon laughs and shakes her head, but doesn't argue. She just heads to the convertible and gets in to start the engine and put the top down.

"Let's get out of here," she say, and sends the sporty little car zooming out of the garage and into the brilliant late spring day.

[nerves_of_ice]

He makes sure her tote bag is tucked safely in the well of the passenger seat, and turns a little in the seat to watch her as she drives. Her golden hair shines in the sunlight, blown by the wind of the car's passing.

[from_the_outside]

Sharon slips on a pair of sunglasses and turns on the car radio, then settles back to see what the little car can do. Like all the others in the Avenger garage, it's perfectly tuned and leaps forward eagerly beneath her hands as the wind whips around them.

She laughs and accelerates, pushing the convertible as fast as is probably safe on these empty back roads. It feels like freedom.

[nerves_of_ice]

He leans back in his seat and tips his face up to the sky, taking simple pleasure in the feel of the sun and the air, breathing deep and unfettered for the first time in a while.

"If you get a ticket I'll pay it," he teases. "Go as fast as you can."

[from_the_outside]

Sharon laughs, bright as the sun shining down all around them.

"You got it, baby," she says, and puts her foot down on the accelerator. The little convertible springs forward like a racehorse. "Hold onto your hat."

[nerves_of_ice]

He puts his left hand on top of his head, pretending, and gives her a wide-eyed, laughing look.

[from_the_outside]

Sharon laughs again. He's happy and relaxed and delighted and teasing, and her heart lifts like it's full of helium to see it.

"Cute," she says, amused. "Very cute."

[nerves_of_ice]

Bucky grins and lowers his hand.

"Wherever you want to go," he tells her. "Take us there. I'll go with you anywhere."

[from_the_outside]

"It's probably too far a drive to take you where I want to go," she says, amused. "But how about town?"

She nudges the little car in the direction of the small town where they'd walked around before and sends them gleefully zooming over the small dips and rises that mark the land between here and there.

[nerves_of_ice]

"Town's good," he agrees. "Where else would you want to go?"

After a second, he adds, "Someday I'd like to take you to Brooklyn."

[from_the_outside]

"It would be nice to go back to the house in Virginia for a little while."

Clean, crisp mountain air, the green of the trees all around them, perfect peace and quiet. She glances over at him, smiling. "I'd like that. I've never spent much time there."

Turning her attention back to the road, she asks: "What would we do while we were there?"

[nerves_of_ice]

"It would," he agrees, something soft and longing in his tone as he remembers the images that had flickered through his mind at the thought of homecoming. "It really would."

"And I don't know, but I bet we could figure something out. Maybe I could take you to Coney Island, for one."

[from_the_outside]

"I've never been," she admits, "so that would be really fun. And it's almost baseball season, so – Coney Island and a game?"

[nerves_of_ice]

Bucky grins at her. "It's a date."

[from_the_outside]

She takes her hand off the gearshift to catch his and squeeze it, grinning back at him, then lets go to put both hands on the wheel and send them accelerating along the back country roads towards the little town.

[nerves_of_ice]

It's not a long drive, all things considered, but it's just long enough to feel distant from the compound, which is enough for him.

He waits for Sharon to park the car, then hops out and goes around to open the door for her. "Did you have anything in particular in mind?"