from_the_outside: by <lj user="quixotic"> (pour me a strong one)
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It's a long, long week. 

All the weeks here are long. She's been exhausted since she first arrived, and it hasn't gotten any easier – she's just gotten used to it.

What she isn't used to is watching what it does to Bucky.

He keeps busy, vanishing shortly after breakfast and not reappearing until well after dark, sometimes not until close to midnight. That doesn't mean she doesn't have eyes on him – she has eyes everywhere in this city. Some of what he gets up to he tells her about. Some of it she sees or hears about.

Some she only pieces together after the fact.

For example:

Four days into his stay she sees a flurry of alerts and messages about a gang of thugs that had decided to tangle with him in a Lowtown market. The videos of him throwing them into plate glass windows and walls and storefront doors travel through Madripoor like wildfire.

And then there are the rumors. It's public knowledge he killed Cade and that he's been seen with the art dealer: what no one knows is why, and the whispers grow steadily more frenetic as the week rolls on. The general consensus seems to be that the art dealer had Cade disposed of in order to help her own climb to power. More than one person attempts to contract him for help with an unsolvable problem. No one manages to hire him. No one seems to know what he wants.

Worse is that as the power dynamic between those on the lower rung vying for Selby's position fluctuates, he deliberately allows himself to be seen more often, delves more deeply into Madripoor's seedy shadows. She doesn't understand until her security catches a would-be assassin she saw coming a mile away, and then she realizes: his involvement with her, with Cade, has painted a target on her back.

So he's decided to paint a larger one on his own.

He loses weight. She pushes breakfast and dinner at him, but he eats mechanically, hardly seems to notice. The lines drawn on his face seem carved into rock. He stops smiling except occasionally when they're alone in the middle of the night, or when his phone pings with a text from Sam.

On the fifth night, he stops sleeping. 

He wakes up from a nightmare he refuses to talk about, and for the next few days she doesn't see him sleep at all. He's catching catnaps like he used to back in the Winter Soldier days, she thinks, but she's not sure. Every day he's a little quieter, a little more grim.

Which is why it's so strange that her apartment is completely filled with flowers.

Everywhere she looks now, there they are: large, expensive bouquets in fancy vases on nearly every available surface. He's had one delivered every single day, and every day she hates herself a little more for bringing him here. Every day he tells her come home with me.

Every day she tells him I can't. And he looks at her with those determined, weary eyes, and her heart breaks a little more.

It's a little over a week after he'd first arrived that she's hosting clients again. The party hasn't even started, and she already wishes she had a drink.

(There weren't any flowers today. She wonders if that's a sign.)

Date: 2021-05-04 09:35 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (bucky (tv): mild mannered)
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"Good," he confirms, as he turns to put his back fully against the wall and slides his arms around her in turn. "Not that tired. It might be worth seeing if there's coffee in stock at some point, but I'm good to get us home."

Date: 2021-05-04 09:47 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (bucky (tv): soft smile)
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His smile is slow and sweet as he leans down and kisses her.

"Come on up. The view's amazing."

Date: 2021-05-04 10:01 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (bucky (tv): i'm listening)
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"Too many city lights," he agrees. "None of that up here."

Date: 2021-05-04 10:17 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (bucky (tv): i'm listening)
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"I can see why." He smiles a little at the thought. "I'll have to start taking pictures again."
Edited Date: 2021-05-04 10:24 pm (UTC)

Date: 2021-05-04 10:30 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (bucky (tv): why god why)
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There's no mistaking it: a pained expression crosses his face when she mentions 'pictures' and 'Sam.' Bucky groans, and leans his head back against the seat.

"I guess I'll have to," he admits.

Date: 2021-05-04 10:40 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (sharon & bucky: a simple conversation)
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He rolls his eyes at her, and decides not to mention the video Sam had Redwing take of his plunge from the plane a few weeks back. Maybe the file's lost.

"Anyway, the boys might get a kick out of it. Especially if I can talk them into showing off the boat."

Date: 2021-05-04 10:51 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (bucky (tv): i'm listening)
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"They're good kids."

The radio chatters suddenly, and he adjusts the volume as he listens, then points out the window to the northeast. "There they are. See them?"

In the distance, a tiny light flashes: red, then green, then red, then green.

"Probably headed to Hong Kong or Tokyo or something like that."

Date: 2021-05-04 11:01 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (bucky (tv): watch and listen)
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"But a good one," he murmurs. "Right?"

Date: 2021-05-04 11:09 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (bucky (tv): sunlight shield)
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"I know."

His tone is quiet and very, very gentle.

Date: 2021-05-04 11:12 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (sharon & bucky: a simple conversation)
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He reaches out to take her hand in his, and squeezes gently.

Date: 2021-05-04 11:26 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (bucky (tv): watch and listen)
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"Sounds good."

The corner of his mouth quirks up, very slightly.

"I don't know if they've got cinnamon, though."

Date: 2021-05-04 11:43 pm (UTC)
nerves_of_ice: (bucky (tv): small smile)
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"Thanks," he says, looking up at her with a smile.

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